HRMCF Chapter 20

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Waking up, Shen Yan's head felt like it was about to explode with pain.

"Not bad, learned to drink heavily, huh? Drink this—"

A cup of honey water was thrust into Shen Yan's hand. He dazedly finished it, squinting his eyes. "Bro..."

Holy crap, why was his voice so hoarse?

Shen Yan's eyes widened instantly, and he pointed at his throat.

Shen Shen sneered. "Keep singing, weren't you having a blast last night?"

Last night... last night he went to a matchmaking party at a KTV, but he didn't sing! He just played a couple of games, drank two glasses of wine, and then Zhao Linsu called him out...

That's where his memory ended.

Shen Yan had a blackout.

"Did Zhao Linsu bring me back last night?" Shen Yan croaked.

"Who else would it be?"

"The year before last when you broke up, you also..." Shen Shen stopped himself in time, but it was too late. Shen Yan stared at him with wide eyes. Shen Shen changed the subject. "Hurry up and take a shower, come out and eat."

Shen Yan threw off the covers and jumped out of bed, putting his escaping brother in a headlock.

"How do you know about that? Did Zhao Linsu tell you?"

"No, no..."

Shen Shen laughed while patting Shen Yan's arm. "Don't you know what you're like when you're drunk? You blurt out everything you can and can't say."

"I said it myself?"

"Yeah."

Shen Yan was incredulous. "I talk nonsense when I'm drunk?"

"Doesn't sound like nonsense, sounds quite real," Shen Shen chuckled. "Hey, is that girl named Tang Yi really that gentle and beautiful? Where did you put the love letter you wrote her? I didn't find it when I was rummaging around."

"Bro—"

After taking a shower, he finally felt much more awake, and his throat wasn't as hoarse. Shen Yan sat down at the dining table listlessly. "Why aren't you going to work?"

"Taking half a day off this morning. Have some soup to warm your stomach. I'll drive you to school later."

Shen Yan hummed in agreement, took two sips of soup, and then couldn't help but ask Shen Shen, "Do I really talk nonsense when I'm drunk?"

"No," Shen Shen comforted him. "Not much."

"What did I say last night?"

"Nothing much, just singing," Shen Shen also took a sip of soup. "I really admire Zhao Linsu. You sang like that, and he still managed to drive the car back properly. His driving skills are really good."

Shen Yan's heart skipped a beat. "What did I sing?!"

"Want to know?" Shen Shen smirked. "I'm not telling you."

Shen Yan: "..."

If he wasn't going to say, then fine. He wouldn't chase after him to ask.

In the car, Shen Yan racked his brains to recall what happened last night, and he did remember a few more details.

He met another gay guy!

But it seemed okay... the gay guy was quite polite.

It was Zhao Linsu who was acting like he didn't know him at the KTV last night.

But how did Zhao Linsu end up bringing him back again? What did the two of them say and do after leaving the private room? Shen Yan had no memory of it at all; that part of his memory was completely blank.

Could he have said something he shouldn't have said to Zhao Linsu?!

The WeChat was completely calm.

No, no way.

If he had really said something to Zhao Linsu, with Zhao Linsu's personality, he would definitely have recorded it as evidence to mock him to death.

Just as Shen Yan breathed a sigh of relief and was about to exit WeChat—

【Son: Video】

Shen Yan: "..."

Help.

The video preview screen was black. Shen Yan didn't dare to open it rashly in the car. He could only silently lock his screen, praying for divine favor. He vowed to balance his diet with meat and vegetables for the rest of his life, as long as it wasn't a video of him questioning Zhao Linsu about why he was fantasizing about him!

After arriving at school, Shen Yan quickly found a secluded corner to open WeChat.

Zhao Linsu had just sent him a video, nothing else.

Shen Yan tremblingly tapped the video.

The video was completely black and very quiet.

"Tired?"

It was Zhao Linsu's voice, sounding very calm, not like he had been shocked.

Shen Yan felt slightly relieved.

"Tired?"

This was his voice, already a bit hoarse.

What on earth did he do? Why was his voice so hoarse?

"A man can't say he's tired!"

Shen Yan: "..."

Why was he shouting so loudly?

Shen Yan's forehead was covered in black lines. The next part of the black screen video was filled with ghostly wails of singing.

"Brother, give me a hug—tell me what's on your mind—tell me all the grievances and vicissitudes you've been through these years—"

Shen Yan: ".................."

He sang for more than ten seconds, repeating this one line over and over.

Each line was more heart-wrenching and full of emotion than the last.

Shen Yan endured the longest twenty seconds of his life.

But the video was only halfway through!

"Good singing," Zhao Linsu's voice was faint. "Song god."

Shen Yan: "..." You dog, are you being sarcastic?

"Thank you!"

Unfortunately, the drunk him didn't realize it. Shen Yan heard himself say excitedly, "Then this brother will sing another one for you!"

"Ah, farewell, my friend, ah, farewell, my friend, ah, farewell, my friend, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye—"

The roaring singing was mixed with the faint laughter of that dog Zhao Linsu, gradually leading to the end of the video. Black screen, over.

Shen Yan: "..."

Not a big problem.

Shen Yan calmly locked his screen, then punched the air twice, "bang bang," killing the dog.

"How's it going?"

Xu Junhao came over as soon as Shen Yan sat down.

Shen Yan didn't remember if he had embarrassed himself in the private room last night besides in front of his brother and Zhao Linsu. He said calmly, "How's what going?"

Xu Junhao sized him up. "Did you fight with Zhao Linsu last night?"

Shen Yan: "...No."

He just gave Zhao Linsu a concert with friendship as the theme.

"That's good," Xu Junhao patted his chest. "Speaking of which, you can really hold your liquor, so cool," Xu Junhao imitated his drinking posture. "You even charmed my girlfriend," then he smiled shyly. "Charmed me too, Handsome Shen, I like you so much, you're so handsome~"

Shen Yan raised his hand and pushed his big face away. "Don't look for me for this kind of activity next time."

Xu Junhao clasped his hands together and twisted them like dough. "Don't be like that, Handsome Shen, you're so heartless and cold, I like you even more..."

"...Get lost."

After getting rid of him, Shen Yan, carrying books on both sides, subconsciously occupied two seats. After doing so, he was a bit dazed.

He had initially thought that Zhao Linsu not sitting next to him in class yesterday was accidental, but Zhao Linsu not coming over in the KTV seemed a bit less like an accident.

So Zhao Linsu must have done it on purpose.

What did it mean?

Didn't want to bother with him?

Shen Yan felt inexplicably confused and reached out to touch the books occupying the seat.

If he didn't want to bother with him, he probably wouldn't have taken him home yesterday...

Forget it, he'd just keep the seat for now.

Zhu Ningbo arrived at the classroom first, still looking listless. He sat down beside Shen Yan and said "Good morning."

"Morning, did you have breakfast?"

"Yes."

Zhu Ningbo put down his bag and turned his head to look inside. "Zhao Linsu..."

Shen Yan also glanced inside. "Not here yet."

"Did you guys have a fight?"

"No," Shen Yan said, bewildered. Why was even Zhu Ningbo asking this?

Zhu Ningbo took out his book and said, "Why don't I sit inside first and leave the outside seat for him?"

"No need," Shen Yan said. "He can sit wherever he wants, I'm not going to spoil him."

"Don't fight, you two..."

Zhu Ningbo said weakly, turning his head just in time to see Zhao Linsu enter the classroom door. He quickly stood up.

As soon as he stood up, Shen Yan knew it must be Zhao Linsu. He hadn't originally intended to fight with Zhao Linsu, but the atmosphere had been built up to this point, so he just looked up at the sky, pretending not to see him.

Playing it cool, who couldn't?

Zhu Ningbo directly got up to give Zhao Linsu his seat, letting him go inside.

Shen Yan listened to the footsteps.

"Excuse me."

Shen Yan secretly chuckled. Wasn't he the one who didn't want to sit with him yesterday? Humph, he had his little temper too. Shen Yan continued to look up, pretending not to hear.

"Song god."

Shen Yan stood up solemnly and gestured inward. "After you."

Zhao Linsu went inside. Shen Yan lowered his head dejectedly, lowering his proud and hungover head. "Brother Su, please don't spread those embarrassing videos."

"Depends on my mood."

Shen Yan raised his face in anger, his gaze directly caught by Zhao Linsu.

Shen Yan closed his eyes, then opened them, then closed them again, then opened them again. After repeating this several times, he turned his head and slumped onto the desk.

Hallucination, it must be a hallucination.

Why was Zhao Linsu's head topped with his name again?!

And it was bigger, thicker, and darker than before! It felt like it was about to crack open.

...So damn terrifying.

Shen Yan's face was buried in his arms, his peripheral vision secretly glancing at Zhao Linsu's head.

He looked once, then buried his face in his arms again.

So it was just a three-day little vacation, huh?

He was making a triumphant return here, wasn't he?

Shen Yan felt grief and indignation in his heart, thinking, could it be that his concert last night had made Zhao Linsu high? What was so special about the fun of fantasizing about the same sex? Why did it start up again?

Class ended, and this time it was finally the long-awaited trio trip to the cafeteria.

Everything seemed to have returned to normal, but it also didn't seem quite so normal.

"Are you busy this afternoon?" Shen Yan asked tentatively.

"No," Zhao Linsu said without looking up. "Are you busy?"

"I'm not busy..."

"Then meet at the school gate at three."

Shen Yan said "oh," drank the rest of his soup, and then asked, "You said you had something to do yesterday, was it the matchmaking party?"

"Cough cough—"

Zhu Ningbo choked on his food. He looked up in shock. "Zhao Linsu, you went to the matchmaking party yesterday?"

Zhao Linsu didn't say anything. Shen Yan answered for him. "Yeah, he didn't say so earlier. I thought he had something serious to do."

Zhu Ningbo was so surprised his mouth hung open. He always felt that Zhao Linsu and the words "matchmaking party" were extremely incompatible.

"Not serious?"

Zhao Linsu raised his eyes. "I thought you seemed to be having quite a good time."

"Not really that happy," Shen Yan said, lowering his head to eat. His head still hurt.

Zhu Ningbo suddenly understood. "So you went too, Shen Yan?"

Shen Yan nodded, then added, "It's not that I didn't want to bring you. Xu Junhao just dragged me over temporarily."

"That's not what I meant," Zhu Ningbo waved his hand. "I meant, since you went, no wonder Zhao Linsu went too."

Shen Yan: "..."

"It has nothing to do with him," Zhao Linsu said without looking up.

Shen Yan quickly said to Zhu Ningbo, "He agreed to go first."

Zhu Ningbo understood and nodded. "So Zhao Linsu went, and then you went."

Shen Yan's head hurt. "...No, we both agreed separately. I didn't know he was going, and he didn't know I was... forget it, it's not important. Just eat your food,乖, eat more."

Looking at the name above Zhao Linsu's head speechlessly, Shen Yan thought, what's the point of going to a matchmaking party? He's still relapsed! And it's getting worse!

The car stopped at the entrance of the residential complex. Shen Yan got out, and Zhao Linsu drove away without stopping for even a second.

Shen Yan was completely confused.

He clearly hadn't shown any special feelings for him, so why did he suddenly start fantasizing about him again? Was fantasizing about the same sex really that stimulating?

So what exactly was the magic?

All along, Shen Yan had consciously or unconsciously ignored one point, which was how exactly Zhao Linsu fantasized about him. Mostly because just thinking about it made him feel uneasy and disgusted, and he was afraid of feeling nauseous.

Shen Yan went into the bedroom, pondered for a long time, and then slapped the table and stood up.

Nothing ventured, nothing gained! Know yourself and your enemy, and you will never be defeated!

What was there to be afraid of? Just looking wouldn't do anything. Zhao Linsu dared to imagine it, so why wouldn't he dare to look?

He'd go all in!

He quickly typed into the search bar:

——【Gay movies】

No, no, too direct. If he searched that, he might find some really disgusting scenes that he couldn't handle.

——【Beautiful gay movies】

How beautiful could gay movies be? Damn it!

Shen Yan typed and deleted several keywords, and then an idea suddenly popped into his head!

——【Gay anime】

Perfect. As long as it was anime, no matter how terrifying, it wouldn't be too scary.

Shen Yan nodded with satisfaction.

He hit enter, and a list of results popped up.

Shen Yan randomly clicked on a "most popular gay anime" interface. As soon as he clicked in, he saw a large image at the top: one guy hugging another from behind.

Shen Yan scrolled down with his mouse. Basically, every anime had an accompanying image. The drawings were all very good and very beautiful. Instead of the discomfort he had expected, Shen Yan felt more amusement. He didn't know why, but as he looked, he actually started laughing.

Shen Yan was an old hand at finding resources. Looking at the pictures didn't give him much feeling. He randomly picked an anime, found the torrent, and downloaded it in three minutes.

"I'll see what you're thinking about all day long..."

Shen Yan muttered to himself as he opened the video. Even though he was at home, he muted the video first.

Watch for half a minute.

Hmm, the scenery is very beautiful, not bad.

Watch for a minute.

Hmm, the two characters are also drawn quite well.

Shen Yan watched calmly with a curious and exploratory mindset for a minute. By the second minute, he couldn't quite hold it together anymore.

The progress... was so fast.

They were kissing already?

Shen Yan dragged his heel on the floor, and the chair slid back a little.

After all, these were drawn figures. Looking at the faces, the shorter one, apart from the short hair, looked almost like a girl. And he had muted the sound beforehand, so he couldn't hear the male voice actors, making the sense of incongruity not particularly strong.

It was okay.

Shen Yan frowned as he watched the taller one kiss down from the shorter one's lips.

Why was he flat-chested?

Ah, no, this was a guy.

Enough, enough, stop kissing, stop kissing, holy crap, did guys really need to kiss there for so long?

When it progressed to taking off pants, Shen Yan couldn't help but lean back a little more, squinting his eyes with a painful expression.

——Phew, thank goodness for the mosaic.

But it was still weird!

The more Shen Yan watched, the tighter his frown became, the more he leaned back, the more he leaned back.

The chair hit the edge of the bed with a "thud."

The images on the screen silently stimulated Shen Yan's eyeballs.

Shen Yan was completely stunned.

So that's how two men... were.

A thought suddenly popped into his mind: was this how Zhao Linsu fantasized about him? Fantasizing about him lying underneath, being...

Shen Yan abruptly slid back to the computer desk, forcefully closed the laptop, his chest heaving violently, his breathing rapid, his face burning hot.

Compared to just seeing the name above his head every day, the impact of the images was a hundred times, a thousand times stronger.

Was it really this outrageous?

What was even more outrageous was that he was having a reaction... Shen Yan lowered his head, pressing his burning face against the tabletop.

This was a normal physiological reaction!

It was all because this damn superpower was too overbearing. He didn't want the name above his head, so he didn't dare to even think about it, let alone... As a healthy young man, he had been holding back for almost three months, so—this was a normal physiological reaction!

But why did he automatically put himself in the bottom position from the very beginning?

Damn it!